Suckiness.

Today just really sucks.Most of it's carry-over from yesterday, but still. It's a sucky day today. I guess I should tell you about last night.

So last night at around midnight, I got a text from Lesli saying she needed to talk to me about something. It took a lot of digging and pulling, but she finally told me that she has doubts about our relationship. When she is happy, she is in love with me. When she is sad or upset or depressed, she doesn't know what she wants or feels. She is just so unsure. I talked it out with her, and we have decided to go on a break. But it will not be like the one Ross and Rachel had. She told me this morning that she didn't want to go on a break because she feels that I will realize that I'm happier without her and that I will move on. I don't think she knows that no on can make me as happy as she can. I cannot move on because she is my heart and soul. I'm so in love with her. I can't just move on from that. I told her that we just need time. She needs time to work it all out. I will give it to her. I will wait for her. She is so worth waiting for. I just hope that she does come back. I think I can live if she breaks up with me completely, but I would much rather prefer if she didn't. We will still be friends during this all, but we won't be like we used to be. I hope she figures this all out soon. I want to be with her and I hope she will still want to be with me.

Ok. Enough of this. So today also sucks because it's the last day of the first camp. I will admittedly be glad to say goodbye to some of the girls leaving, but the last day always wears me down. I may edit this later, but for now I will post this. So long for now.