Life

Hi. So it looks like I'm back. Sorry for the delay, my life has kinda been hectic since I last wrote.

So, I guess I should explain to you why I stopped for a while. Well, the day I stoped blogging was the day I found out that my madrina (godmother) had just found out that she had cancer. My other madrina told my mom that Nina Rosi, as we called her, had pancreatic cancer but didn't know. I was devastated. For those of you who don't know, pancreatic cancer is pretty much always terminal because it is so hard to find. My Nina Doris told my mom the Nina Rosi only had a few days, maybe weeks. I have never cried as much as I did that day. What was really hurting me was the fact that I had not seen Nina Rosi in eight years because she lived in Juarez and neither of us had a passport to cross over. I was so scared she would die before I could see her again.

Despite Nina Doris's prediction, my madrina lived about seventeen weeks longer than was expected. She took a turn for the worse in November, so our mom took us over to see her. That was on November 15.  The next day God took her home. That week was the worst week of my life thus far. Never have I cried so much for so long. I think the saddest thing about it was how much pain my family was in. I didn't really know Nina Rosi, but she was my mom's best friend. I cried for the loss my family experienced. I cried for my cousins who lost their aunt, for my cousins who lost their mom. We all were hurting.

Since then my mom has become a little cynical and bitter. It's sad to see her hurting so much. Her pain was made worse when we found out that her cousin had stomach cancer. Thank God it wasn't advanced, but still. Two people with cancer in the same area within 6 months of each other. It tore at my mom. At least he is better and has had the cancer removed.

So enough about that part of my life. I guess I have some good news throughout all of this. I did manage to get a girlfriend in these recent months. For those of you who know me, you might be a little confused. Let me clear things for you. I am a lesbian. I did not come out to anyone except my really close friends at school and my family. So yes, I have a girlfriend and she is awesome. I guess that's all I have to say. This blog will mainly be devoted to what happens in my weird life as well as some stuff that my friends say that I deem hilarious. Please don't judge. I won't if you don't.